Sep 01, 2017 Budapest
Alaire, our nanny, left us in Slovenia to go home and be with her fiancé. She is simply following another dream. One that I can relate too, of wanting a family. I am in Budapest and I am following the lands lead. I’m walking miles daily. Today while wandering past the Parliament building I hugged myself and smiled at the blue sky. Simply because we were both there. The texture of Europe is starting to feel like home. I am feeling pretty whole.
My family has adjusted to traveling wonderfully. We know how much moving is too much. We have been good at keeping a morning routine of breakfast, working out, then school to start the day. Wren sleeps like a champ in her travel tent and the boys are getting better at trying one new food item a day. I can’t visualize my life without them, I don’t want to either. Their emotional well being is a constant worry in my mind. Last night as I was tucking the boys in Beckett said to me, “Mom I love you and I love Wren and I love Porter and I love Me, Beckett and I love dad.”
I was so proud when he said, “I love me, Beckett.” It made me realize he was happy and confident. How often do we include ourselves on our list of love? Honestly, I never have. Now I will. Everybody deserves kindness and that includes being kind to ourselves. I already had meaning and purpose before I became a mom but my kids have focused me. They are at the heart of where I belong.