having faith

It is called a holy city… but it is hectic, chaotic, lively, and full of hustle and bustle. The 4 quarters of the city actually feel different from each other even though the streets all wind together. It is a place with layer on top of religious layers. After being confronted with so much this last week I am trying to fathom what it really means to believe in something, with your whole being, with so much surefire.

Ironically as I was contemplating my own beliefs one of our nanny applicants sent me a message about a horrific event that she was witness to a couple days ago in the South of France. She was down saying goodbye to her grandpa and was getting ready to board the train back home. She sadly told me about two girls  that where stabbed in front of her and how she ran for her life on a train station platform. She sent me a message trying to process the event  and understand what had happened to her – why she was still alive and they were not. Our insta always made her smile so she decided to write me to “try to head back to the light” Then she asked if I believe in God or faith.

I’ve been thinking a lot about her and her questions.

What I know to be clear cut is I love my children. There isn’t anything that I wouldn’t suffer, endure, or surrender for their well being. I believe in my bond with my husband. A connection that we are constructing slowly over hard conversations, loving nights, and service to each other. I am certain of a world where there are more people who want to be and do good than bad. I am convinced that if all our actions and thoughts are motivated by love we will live a happier life. I have faith in myself, my family, and life beyond this world. I believe in a higher power, that believes in me and wants me to have a successful life.

And lastly I am adopting a new belief that Anne-Charlotte sent to me in a very heartfelt FB message about her life;

“I believe in human-beings, and I have the ultimate faith that, when you are good to life, life will be good to you.”

 

7 Comments
  • Charlotte
    Posted at 11:18h, 06 October Reply

    I too remember asking you a question about Faith. I will be praying that through this journey… your hearts may be opened to a clearer view on who Christ is and how your life will never be the same if you except Him in your life. For your life will feel empty without Him.

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 14:59h, 06 October Reply

      My husband and I have both been baptized Christian and feel a deep love for God and Christ, our lives feel very full.

  • Sandie Tillotson
    Posted at 15:36h, 06 October Reply

    Faith makes all things possible – Love makes all things easier and hope makes all things work! Love you Kenzie ..thanks for sharing

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 16:06h, 06 October Reply

      I love this and I love you! Thanks for sharing!

  • Trina Sheranian
    Posted at 16:47h, 06 October Reply

    Kenzie, I LOVE you! I have been thinking a lot about my own souls journey lately when I came upon this quote by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience.” Hope, love, joy and charity are all found in this divine center of our eternal souls. Faith comes from nurturing your spirit, from following the life-path of our exemplar Jesus Christ, and from centering your thought and action in LOVE. You have a beautiful soul that beams within you and fills this human world with light. LOVE YOU! xox

  • Rose
    Posted at 18:52h, 06 October Reply

    Beautiful.

  • Patty Anatole
    Posted at 06:39h, 07 October Reply

    Faith is definitely our foundation, our solice and our hope. It is sad to me that in Jerusalem we have such religious upheaval in such a sacred place. It would be the one place to have peace on this earth if all faiths were peaceful…hugs💋🎶

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