Human-being or Human-doing?

Germany is a big culture with a rough history. From the division of Berlin to different wars. This has made them a strong people with a place and home that they’ve struggled to find. I feel they know who they are as a culture. They are orderly and they never jaywalk. They will wait at a red traffic light with NO cars in sight. Unless it’s green they won’t budge. It is a heavily forested land and I can tell we barely missed the autumn colors. We were really able to make the places we stayed  feel like home. We had yards, toys, and one place even had a piano for me to play!

Before we left on this trip I wondered who I would be once all my comforts and regular activities that I identify with are no longer a part of my life. What is it to be human with no resources? No ownership, no property, no hobbies. Strip all that away and what is it to be human?  Because when asked about myself I often describe what I do.

I am a painter

I am a mother

I play the piano

I do pilates

I write

I ski

I am an American

I ride horses

I hike

I am a dancer

 

Who I am has always been defined by what I am doing. I am a ‘human-doing’ more than a ‘human-being’. My children are masters of just ‘being’. No one is better at being than kids. Simply being present. I don’t know when we lose that.

Honestly, I am not quite sure who I am. I’ve realized this for some time. I am OK with this – for now.  I do look inside of me and see greatness, I don’t focus on what’s wrong with me.

I see a full life

A fun and creative group of friends and relationships

A relatable human being and

Someone trying to be herself for herself.

 

 

4 Comments
  • Kris parry
    Posted at 16:21h, 07 November Reply

    Love this Kenzie. Beautiful girl, beautiful life.

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 17:10h, 07 November Reply

      Thanks Aunt Kris 😘

  • Annie
    Posted at 14:58h, 08 November Reply

    If I can add one more to your list of “what you are”…
    You are an increadable daughter!! Loving, wise, creative, and insightful.
    Love you beyond, beyond.

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 17:30h, 08 November Reply

      Awe thanks mom! But you’re kind of obligated to say this 😉

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