My self review

We officially start traveling this week! It is finally here and I am ready. Que the song Leaving on a Jet Plane. Before we kick off this year I want to get my base. Find out where my grounding is. This way I can see how far I have come at the end. Or regressed…I guess… I’m in the process of doing something new. It’s called a 5 facet review. If you have never heard of it, it looks at 5 different parts of you life: Your

  • Physical

  • Emotional

  • Mental

  • Social

  • And Spiritual Health.

 

I  write down a strength and weakness in each category for myself and my kids -hopefully twice a year- to assess where we are all at, so we can better understand where to go next. I am constantly being re-made over again as I am traveling through my daily life. I still bear the weight of this future me. She is the one person that I will always chase. So here I am through a magnifying glass.

Physical

Luckily I have never struggled with weight but I have worked hard to be in shape before this trip starts and I hope to maintain it. I want to see how I can implement daily living into a healthy habit. I want to prove to myself that daily activities of walking, exploring,  and playing with my kids can be enough to keep me where I like to be. My weakness is cooking so I hope to be able to improve upon  diet to help with our physical needs.

Emotional

Derek don’t you DARE comment on this! I feel things. Deeply. I always have and I’ve always felt it was a strength. Some may call it being emotional but I have gained so much from being this way. I have gained insights, strength, love, and expereinces which I wouldn’t trade. When I am in, I am all in…there is no half way for me. I find myself wondering if I will be emotionally ready to feel the world. All the people, nature, and cultures out there that are so GOOD.  I am tingly with knowing that I will experience so much good this year and I wonder how that will shape me emotionally.

Mental

Here is my truth. I have anxiety. I’ve had it since childhood. It was widely ignored until I was an adult and married. Knowing this about myself and understanding it has made me feel much more capable, and oddly enough, I feel like I have much more mental clarity. I can easily tell when it is a stressful situation or when it is simply anxiety rearing its ugly head for no reason. I can name it, accept it, and move past it. I know that I am prone to let my emotions rule me. So I guess this is where the Buddhist in me would say find the middle way.

Social

Yes, I have this one down. But I am interested to see how this develops in the coming year. When I am in situations where I don’t speak the language for months on end. How will I feel like I have made a connection and friendship? I am not afraid, just curious to see how I develop socially- who knows maybe I become an expert at pantomime!

Spiritual

I’ve always been spiritual and I’ve always felt that it has been a blessing in my life. I believe in Heavenly parents. I talk with them daily. They are the source that I reach for when I need comfort. I constantly reach for my heavenly mother for guidance as a mother, sister, and woman. This is the most personal and hardest to explain because it is simply feeling. There is no logic to back it up. I simply feel connected to a higher power. I believe in it full heartedly. It believes in me, so I will continue to work towards it.

This is me leveling with myself so that I can re-evalutate myself in six months to a year. There has been this distortion on personal achievement because society has taught us that achieving worth is measured in monetary gain. There is no economic value in this. There is just me. I’ve said it before, no one can destroy or weaken the character that we forge. Only we can do that.

Brianna Claassen Photography

10 Comments
  • Sarah Ferguson
    Posted at 14:08h, 05 June Reply

    Thank you for this perspective on your journey. I hope you will journal/blog frequently in the upcoming year. I look forward to traveling with you on a journey that I will never physically make.

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 14:58h, 05 June Reply

      I am planning on blogging the up’s and down’s of this coming year for sure! Glad to have you along for the adventure

  • Liz dreves
    Posted at 19:51h, 05 June Reply

    Enjoy your blogs

  • Jan Brown
    Posted at 21:06h, 19 June Reply

    I’m looking forward to going with you on your journey through your accounts on FB and blogs etc.
    You have a beautiful family and I pray for God’s protection around you as you go.

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 21:10h, 19 June Reply

      Thank you! I can use extra prayers this year

  • Amy Carrier
    Posted at 21:21h, 19 June Reply

    Congrats on surviving your first week! I look forward to following your adventure.

    As a side note, I have been a nanny for six years and being able to love and nurture the kids that I watch has been a blessing. I have not been lucky enough to meet a partner and start my own family, so being able to help a family raise their children has been a huge gift to me. I am sure this will be the same for your nanny. So in those moments where it’s hard to not be there, remember you’re sharing those special moments and that means a lot.

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 21:31h, 19 June Reply

      Thank you for this perspective… I honestly never thought of it from that side. It is a helpful reminder that I’ll draw on in those times of feeling like I should be doing more

  • Obed
    Posted at 14:24h, 04 July Reply

    J adore vous. Voir heureux.c est tres jolie. J espere pouvoir voyager avec vous. Ce que j ai jamais fais. J adore. Vos enfants

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 01:52h, 07 July Reply

      Je suis desole mais nous avons trouve notre fille au pair

  • julie Membeka
    Posted at 22:50h, 08 July Reply

    Bonsoir j adorerai garder ces magnifiques bébés je serais enchantée de leur connetre

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