Aug 11, 2017 New Growths
Week Four: Utah and Norway
Utah say whattt? I thought this was a Europe tour?! No, you aren’t reading it wrong. Yes, I went back to the states.
Let me just preface that 2017 is the year for the Moore’s! All three of my older siblings announced that they would be adding another little one to their families, I was chosen out of 24,000 applicants to be The Nanny and travel the world, my younger brother got engaged, my baby brother graduated from high school and got to go to Palestine, and my mom decided she would sell our home in Texas and move to Utah to take care of my grandma and do a service mission for our church. Needless to say, 2017 is a big year for us.
I’ve been close with all of my brothers at one point or another in my lifetime, but I’ve always been close with my younger brother Ryan. In high school everyone thought we were dating because we always did the same activities. Ryan got engaged earlier this year and the date they chose for their wedding was after I would have left to be The Nanny.
Now, I understand that not everyone has the same opinions as I do, but I was outraged that my little brother would have his wedding on a day where his only sister wouldn’t be able to attend. It hurt me so much that we didn’t talk for four months. I’m not proud of that, and it still hurts to know that this is how much it hurt me. It took me a long time to even be okay with the idea that he would do that. Even writing about it now brings me to tears.
I was able to work it out with the Tillotson’s that I would be able to come back for the wedding, and at first I was not happy about it. But I am so glad I went back. It took a great deal of forgiveness and growth in myself to be able to just let it go. Surrounded by all my siblings, my mom and Alex, I just knew this is where I needed to be.
Leaving to go back to my dream job in Norway was harder than I thought. I caught a cold on the flight over, which made the week pretty difficult. Jet lagged, physically sick, and a little home sick is not a fun combination. Needless to say Norway was beautiful. We celebrated Wren and Beckett’s birthdays: one year and four years, definitely years of growth.
I’m grateful for the opportunity to grow. We all need little cut backs and redirection to grow to who we need to be. It’s not easy, it’s not meant to be.