Week One on the Road

Our first week of travel brought us to Pirates Cove in Boulder City, Nevada. There were minimal melt downs, from Derek and the kids, so I would say we are off to a smooth start.  Alaire, our nanny, won’t officially join us until July when we go to NYC. However, she joined us this week for fun. We haven’t had a nanny before. This week gave me a small taste of  little adjustments I will make with my parenting because I will have an extra set of hands around to help us out.

Beckett was crying after going on the rope swing across the pool. I noticed that Alaire came over and held him. I made a small movement to go towards him and comfort him, but I stopped instead and watched her. I am going to have to be OK with someone else nurturing for me in different moments. I am going to need to learn this next month when to be a mom and when it’s OK to let other’s step in for me. I am learning when to give of myself and when to let others give to me. 

I think there is a secret tone of guilt and judgment in the parenting world. That if you aren’t there personally for every moment, every second, every event, every tear  you are a bad parent. It needs to be  YOU at all times. If you aren’t giving all of your time to your children you are selfish and a pretty crummy parent. There is this un-spoken shame of wanting things beyond a home and family as a parent. I’ll be the first to admit that I want autonomy from my kids. It makes me a much better parent. At the same time I’d like to think that their life is going to be pretty great because I am their parent.They’re getting a very different upbringing than I did. I want my children to have the right to be children and this year is one of the ways I am trying to do that.

 

 

7 Comments
  • racheljalbert
    Posted at 20:53h, 19 June Reply

    amazing pictures following you all the way from montreal 🇨🇦

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 20:55h, 19 June Reply

      Montreal is a fabulous place! Seriously great food!

  • Leeza
    Posted at 20:55h, 19 June Reply

    What an amazing adventure! You are so down to earth! Just got engaged and not thinking of starting a family for at least 7 years, but your posts make me so excited for the potential of having a happy, growing family!

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 21:03h, 19 June Reply

      Congrats on your engagement! I say give yourself time before you start a family. There is no rush and when it happens it will be magic with a bit of chaos 😂

  • Lourdes
    Posted at 23:18h, 19 June Reply

    Looking good!!

  • Laura
    Posted at 16:09h, 20 June Reply

    As a former full-time nanny, I just want to say that I LOVE the honesty you’re sharing about your feelings toward your nanny. It seems like you’ve landed yourself a great one. And if this is true, she definitely is not trying to be you. She will love your kids and nurture them and do her very best to “be you” when you aren’t around, but your kids will always know you’re their mommy and your bond will always be special. Thank you for making her a large part of your story, for showing us pictures of her with the kids, and just talking about her in general. This will give her so much confidence and will help her feel like she really is part of the family. Kee up the food work! Happy travels!

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 16:57h, 20 June Reply

      I really appreciate your view point, especially considering your background. I am just figuring everything out so it’s nice to hear that I am not completely off 😂. She is a good one and she may think we are crazy!

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