May 28, 2018 why I started to meditate
I started to meditate for the first time three years ago. What led me to this is simple action? Anxiety. I know everyone experiences some from of anxiety. It is life. For me it is a little bit deeper. Genetics play a part for me and for others in my family. I’ve had it my whole life with out realizing it had a name until I was an adult. To be honest I’ve always liked it. It motivates me to push myself in school, life, dance, music, or whatever goals/dreams I have. At times it has made me high strung; with panic attacks or biting my nails down to nothing, or I’ve worried over unnecessary things; like how I’d be able to pay my taxes as an adult when I was only 14. Some of this might seem extreme but it was just me, my personality, and how I was born. I liked how motivated I felt, how much more I could get done then the next person.
I am opening up to you about this inside piece of me because I want people to know that we can have different mindsets that can be strengths but may need to be balanced too. My anxiety was never addressed or helped by my parents growing up and I honestly think they didn’t know the sign of it themselves. As I became an adult I started to perceive that others didn’t feel my same level of pathos as I began to compare myself to those close to me.
It was around this time that I started to meditate. My goal is to soften my worry and to be mindful of where I am in the present. Not in some future or past situation. To gain self control of habit, thoughts, and emotions. My meditation focuses heavily on breathing. This one simple thing my body does with out me thinking about and as long as I am breathing more is right with me than wrong. I take in a breath and I let it go when it no longer serves me so I can take another breath.
I have been traveling for 51 consecutive weeks and honestly loving it. It is an adventure that some might say wouldn’t be healthy for someone with an anxiety disorder due to the unstable nature of moving, traveling, and elevated levels of stress. I’d like to say your weaknesses can be strengths. That something that is labeled as a vice can actually propitiate the most growth. I simply want to share that I am able to live calmly because I have put in the time to meditate around 4x a week, I religiously use an app called MeditationStudio. There isn’t any money compensation for writing this blog. I simply feel its important to spread healthier ways of being that aren’t just outward but inward focused too.
This is a perfect App to start, understand, and explore meditation. It has a five easy categories to navigate: Collections, Courses, Teachers, Search, and Unguided. There is a one time subscription fee of $4
Collections: Cover meditations for stress, sleep, anxiety, mothers, work, relationships, quick breaks, zen, just for kids, College, and Veterans to name a few! All have multiple options within each category with varying lengths of time and different teachers.
Courses: Is the first place I would go. It has mediation essentials for those who are new to the practice. It goes into different styles of mediation so you can figure out what works. Whether you’re into breath meditation, body, heart, mindfulness, guided or unguided etc… it really lets you discover what you like.
Teachers: As you start to try out practices you will naturally like or really dislike the sound of a persons voice. After you experience a few teachers that you enjoy you can then just go straight to the teachers categories and a whole list of meditations that they’ve done will pop up! One of my favorite teachers to listen to is Elisha Goldstein.
Unguided: This section is perfect for those that don’t like someone guiding you through a meditation. You can set the duration, music, bells or chimes and then focus in on what you need too for your own meditation.
Each meditation course you click on has the option of adding some soothing music whether it is guided or unguided and I personally love and use this feature every time. Self growth is tender. I don’t know why I felt the need to share this very personal side of my life with you but I think it’s because I constantly ask myself what do I want to bring to the world and it is relief and help. Meditation has done both of these things for me and my children. I just want to offer some more help where I can.
Let me know if you have any other practices to share that you’ve loved! I am always open to new things!