May 16, 2017 your fears are not my fears
Blogging is about being transparent, so with every post I try to reveal another side, another layer, another piece of me.
I am an idealist, I assume everything will work out and so far everything has. My husband will also tell you that I am a romantic. He actually says it in this snarky roll your eyes tone, “You are sssuuuuccchhh a romantic.”
As questions come my way from family or social media, people seem to focus on the negative. Which I guess is good in a way because my nature does not typically go there. The top questions so far:
- Am I nervous?
- Am I scared?
- How am I not feeling overwhelmed?
While people worry about what could go wrong for us this year I ask myself what could go right? The first time someone asked me if I was scared it seemed like the most bizarre question. Scared of what? Worst case we give it a try. We come home when planned or earlier. That doesn’t seem scary to me. I realize this is them experiencing my decision through their emotions. It’s their fears about my situation, being projected out. I don’t let people put their uneasiness onto me. Because most of the time someone else’s fears are misplaced fears for me. We each find harmony in different ways. For some it’s reading, hiking, etc… for me it’s traveling.
I am going to tell you what my real fears are.
- That we will get bed bugs -no seriously
- That I will have to deal with one of the kids getting an ear infection. My kids never get them. Porter had one once. For some reason I have this fear that someone will suddenly end up with one and I will have to figure out how to see a pediatrician. Don’t judge. It’s my fear not yours.
- That I won’t be able to relax
Like I said, lately I’ve been getting the same questions. However, during this process I have people constantly asking me all sorts of questions. I would LOVE to answer them! For my next blog post I am going to answer any 10 questions that you guys have for me. So PLEASE feel free to ask away.