your fears are not my fears

Blogging is about being transparent, so with every post I try to reveal another side, another layer, another piece of me.

I am an idealist, I assume everything will work out and so far everything has. My husband will also tell you that I am a romantic. He actually says it in this snarky roll your eyes tone, “You are sssuuuuccchhh a romantic.”  

As questions come my way from family or social media, people seem to focus on the negative. Which I guess is good in a way because my nature does not typically go there. The top questions so far:

  1. Am I nervous?
  2. Am I scared?
  3. How am I not feeling overwhelmed?

While people worry about what could go wrong for us this year I ask myself what could go right? The first time someone asked me if I was scared it seemed like the most bizarre question. Scared of what? Worst case we give it a try. We come home when planned or earlier. That doesn’t seem scary to me. I realize this is them experiencing my decision through their emotions. It’s their fears about my situation, being projected out. I don’t let people put their uneasiness onto me. Because most of the time someone else’s fears are misplaced fears for me. We each find harmony in different ways. For some it’s reading, hiking, etc… for me it’s traveling.

I am going to tell you what my real fears are.

  1. That we will get bed bugs -no seriously
  2. That I will have to deal with one of the kids getting an ear infection. My kids never get them. Porter had one once. For some reason I have this fear that someone will suddenly end up with one and I will have to figure out how to see a pediatrician. Don’t judge. It’s my fear not yours.
  3. That I won’t be able to relax

Like I said, lately I’ve been getting the same questions. However, during this process I have people constantly asking me all sorts of questions. I would LOVE to answer them! For my next blog post I am going to answer any 10 questions that you guys have for me. So PLEASE feel free to ask away.

15 Comments
  • Courtney Jenkins
    Posted at 15:08h, 16 May Reply

    Question: what are you most excited about in the sense of now having a nanny?

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 15:19h, 16 May Reply

      OH this is a great question!

  • Greice Malhstedt
    Posted at 15:52h, 16 May Reply

    Nice post! My question is: how did you guys decided about all destinations and places to go with the kids? Did you change the plans considering the kids? 🙂 Regards from Brazil!!

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 16:27h, 16 May Reply

      Brazil! That’s a country I want to see! Great questions 🙂

  • Christian Hernandez
    Posted at 16:19h, 16 May Reply

    Question: can you send me post cards from places you are going too.

  • Nikola Kreisingerova
    Posted at 16:38h, 16 May Reply

    Whats gonna happen when you get back to the USA , do you want to settle down and live Again the “typical stereotyp” life? Hope you will come to Czech republic, youre more than welcome to stay w me and my boyfriend :))) good luck, love your courage guys

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 17:42h, 18 May Reply

      OH man! I have had this thought a lot! Thanks for welcoming us into your space 🙂 I think we would drive you nuts! But I would love to meet you if end up near each other

  • Christina bunner
    Posted at 16:50h, 16 May Reply

    I think you are courageous. I am looking forward to following your journey. Is there any country you are having trouble getting to visit because of visas or other paperwork that you were really hoping to experience?

  • Kimberly Sansing
    Posted at 19:22h, 16 May Reply

    Since a strict routine with your kids is probably not achievable this yr (& is it really ever?? ha), have you all considered a unique, consistent family activity that could be repeated weekly?
    For example: intentionally calling Thursday a family ice cream treat day.
    This could be something all looked forward to that brings you together on a hunt and experience and for family conversations
    despite your destination.

    Happiest of Trails to you each!
    -Kimberly

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 19:27h, 16 May Reply

      A routine is something I’ve thought about a lot and your idea is brilliant!

  • Liz Sinclair
    Posted at 20:16h, 16 May Reply

    Oh I relate with the ear infection fear. When we travelled with our kids my biggest worry would be that this would happen and where do you go for treatment.

  • Heather Graziano
    Posted at 22:26h, 16 May Reply

    I would love to someday do an around the world trip! Are you booking everything in advance of will some of it be on a whim?

  • Andrea Merchant
    Posted at 23:32h, 16 May Reply

    Hi! I’ve been following along as you prepare for your journey. 🙂
    The summer before last I spent three months as a nanny on a sailboat in the Mediterranean. The family sold all of their belongings and their house and moved on to the sailboat to spend a year sailing the world! The time period leading up to the departure was exciting and hectic! I’m an adventurer so it wasn’t scary for me but I sure learned a lot during my time on the boat. The family had two kids- a four year old and a four month old. The baby needed vaccinations while we were in Italy and we figured it out by contacting the American Hospital in Florence. 🙂 Creating and maintaining a daily routine was the biggest challenge, in my opinion.
    You are giving your children such an amazing gift! I wish you all the best of luck and I can’t wait to follow along!

    • Kenzie Tillotson
      Posted at 00:27h, 17 May Reply

      My husband wanted us to live on a sailboat for a year! That’s incredible that you were able to do that. I said heck-to-the-no with 3 young kids…so that’s why we are doing this! I’ll take on the water when they are teenagers 🙂

  • Melinda Clayville
    Posted at 02:59h, 11 June Reply

    How funny! I’m the same way. My husband is having to remind of the realities, keeping my feet on the ground. Luckily, I also help give him wings and most of the time we’re able to find somewhere in between firmly on the ground and in the clouds. 😄

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